"the process of internally examining and exploring an issue of concern, tirggered by an experience, which creates and clarifies meaning in terms of self, and which results in a changed conceptual perspective" (Boyd and Fales 1985)
Reflections, that is what I have been doing every now and then...
but more frequently for the past few weeks...
Because snippets of the past returns to haunt me, engulf me and and to savour my bitterness slowly and deliberately...
Those more than often nightmares is an indication...
Reflections on my personality, character, behaviour and interactions with people whom I have met always end up with one question...
Have I fail as a daughter, as an elder sister, as a niece and cousin, and as a friend?
No matter how much I regret about the things done (or not done), there is no way I can turn back time and undo hurtful things...
And here I am, trying desperately to patch things up...
To be ignorant...
To pretend that those events did not happen...
July'10
August'10