My Story..My Life...

Guess this will be an ultra long post...

I am still sufferring from post CNY syndrome...too tired to wake up...mind not clear enough to execute tasks..well, you know what I mean...
CNY this year is an abnormal one because my uncle died last november and my cousin is hospitalised. So can you imagine how cold and lifeless this CNY is? Furthermore, my paternal grandmother is angry at my eldest uncle and his family (as usual the dowager blew her top off) for some ridiculous reasons. (better not wash my dirty linen in the public). And of course, my family went to visit my cousin in the hospital during Chu Xi and Chu Er. My family believes that visiting loved ones during CNY is not 'pantang' at all. My cousin's condition is picking up very slowly but at least he is progressing. I read his medical report and saw terms such as trachestomy, thalessemia minor, diabetic ketoacidosis, anoxic brain injury and septic shock due to secondary infection. I think my mind just went blank that time. Hope that he will be able to speak and walk soon.

And then my work....guess my contract will end sooner than expected, probably in early march. Speaking of which now, I could not bear to leave all my colleagues, especially Faridah, Esther and Hong Pei. I know my boss has requested for me to stay longer, but the chance is very slim because they have exceeded their expenses. Guess I will have to search for a new job soon. OMG! Imagine having to go through all the agony again...feeling disappointed and down...

Heard that A Level's results are going to be released on 2th March...talk about double jeopardy...

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Sunday 11 February 2007

Sometimes I wonder if this job is suitable for me...I know I like this job a lot, having to learn many new stuff and gain medical knowledge. However, things do not usually go the way you wanted it to be. Like how docters and patients always miscommunicate. If docter say start treatment on this day, then later you call the patient to inform them but he told u that he wanted to start treatment after CNY. Then it is too late to call the doctor up and ask and furthermore it is the weekend, so in the end I have to worry the whole weekend and probably still get scolded tomorrow. Moreoever, I always thought if one has any queries can just ask but in the end, when the doctor's doortag when missing in the room I am in charge of, I get scolded and ridiculed when I ask around. SO CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT IS THE PROPER WAY TO DO THINGS??? I guess I am not as strong as I think I am..time for a leave/break? Anyway, I think I may be transferred back to the front...:(

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Tuesday 6 February 2007

Kwanie mentions that since my blog is for me to vent all my frustrations, why am I not doing so? In response to that I shall write the following:

Although this week is MUCH better than the previous week, things are still pretty rough for me.(which gives u the idea how bad it is the last time...). First of all, there is A LOT of admissions to be done, especially yesterday. A record breaking of a total of 9 admissions! Phew! Then....apparently all the phone calls that I picked up gave me tremendous amount of work to do on top of my usual workload. And today, I made a huge mistake that causes unnecessary trouble to my colleage. (And this is me shouting to the sky) When is my streak of bad kuck going to end??? coz I fear I might break down soon.

Work apart, O's results are going to be released soon. In other words, A's results are going to be released soon after. That means my D-day is approaching. I seriously fear for my GP and Physics, which makes me wonder am I going to cry on that day? Probably. Depends. But I cannot take the stress of my family and relatives and possibly my colleagues comparing my results with other people. Do all cowards feel like this? Coz I definitely feel like one myself. But no matter what, one has to face the music. Just hope that everything goes well...

Looks like I have a lot of praying to be done this year...

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Sunday 4 February 2007

Hi there!

Well, for those whom I have said before that I would not have my personal blog, erm...I guess I just broke that promise. The reason being:

I need a channel to vent out all my frustrations! if not I would just burst...

Have been working for the past two months. Things are generally smooth-sailing until last week, where things start to going HORRIBLY wrong. Guess Lady Luck just abandoned me that week. Enough of work matter now, coz for the next few posts (and possibly the rest of it as well) are going to be regarding my work...(boring, I know)

So I have just watched Season 2 of Project Superstar...was kinda hoping that Diya will win. Coz Singapore has too many male winners. And also I feel that Diya has the X factor to step out of Singapore. But truthfully, I was disappointed at her self-picked song, coz the song was obviously too hard for her to manage. She could have picked something more cheeky, lively or even touching but...well....the judges had said it all.

Today was also the last episode of Nanoha A's, the animation that captured my attention since Cardcaptor Sakura and Fushigi Yuugi. I loved the way the whole series had concluded by showing the lives of all characters six years later. Chrono is still charming as ever and Yuuno has changed to a bookworm type of guy. From their conversations, looks like Nanoha is together with Yuuno, and not Chrono as I have previously expected. No matter what, like all Nanoha's fans, I am defintely looking forward to the third series of Nanoha.

Shall end here now. I know some are falling asleep already....:P

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