I am blown away, totally!

This was really way cool, to be able to see radiological report of a CT (computed topography) scan of a patient. Thanks to Dr B.C and Sister Z again! Dr B.C was explaining to me patiently how a CT scan was carried out. Then he used a patient's recent and previous CT scan to compare. So as the patient lie down horizontally and the scanner swept through, cross section of the patient was seen. The program, Centricity Web, allows user to scroll down so that one sees the entire length of the scan. Dr B.C pointed out to me where the lung, collar bone, sternum and the liver is. He explained that the black portion was actually air, so one actually sees a big patch of black ina healthy lung. But the patient's tumour cells had spread to the lung, so the scan showed that the right lung had an opaque patch of pleural plug. Then later on, he switched to a lung window, where I can see the blood vessels in the lung clearly.

An interesting and entertaining lesson...one so fascinating that I cannot peel my eyes of the screen.

Sister Z and Dr B.C also explained about the process of testing for Hepatitis B today. It involves screening for surface antigen. So if that is positive, the person will be forever a Hep B carrier. The next step is the screen for the amount of Hep B antibodies. So if the person is a Hep B carrier but has a large amount of antibodies, then the virus responsible for Hep B is considered dormant.

And the last thing I have learnt today.

Primitive neuroectodermal tumor. One of a group of cancers that develop from the same type of early cells, and share certain biochemical and genetic features. Some PNETs develop in the brain and central nervous system (CNS-PNET), and others develop in sites outside of the brain such as the limbs, pelvis, and chest wall (peripheral PNET). Also called primitive neuroectodermal tumor.

Oh no...my hopes have been raised again...

Sent in my personal statement to Sis Z today...was quite surprised that she actually took time to open her mailbox since it is a Sunday and I told her that I will send in by Saturday.

No words can describe the up and downs of my feeling right now...

I am just scared that the higher my hope is, the harder the disappointment is. My fragile heart cannot take another blow...

Sis Z told me to appeal to show them that I am serious about this....I guess that is the only way I can do...and I have heard of other people being rejected the first time only to get accepted in subsequent tries later on...

If I say I don't care about the decision...I am lying...because I cannot ignore that sinking feeling in my heart...

Very upset now...first time in a few years with the urge to cry...

Maybe I should just forget about that idea...but how to? It has always been my dream, my passion...

I am back...from a drought period of not blogging...

Well, a major event happened in my workplace today. Two of my colleagues quarelled and argued. Quite fiercely, apparently. So bad that both cried...(excuse me? I am much younger and both of you cried???) Not like this event is going to affect me a lot. I am just a bystander...not going to take any side...but I am just sad that how people can be so petty and sensitive. I guess one can never find a workplace where everyone works harmoniously and tongues do not wag at all.

Amid that, I am VERY touched yesterday. All because of a simple action. After all the clinic consultations ended, my colleagues and I were famished. Then suddenly, Dr B.C bought fruit cake for us just because we were hungry. I mean normally the doctors will give us treats that the patients gave them, but Dr B.C specially bought it for us! I am touched by his actions for treating his colleagues as well as his patients. Anyway, this is the picture of the cake taken by by latest handphone.