My Story..My Life...

一个人的圣诞怎么说都是孤独的...
很寂寞...有种想哭的冲动...
看着朋友送来祝福的简讯...心里有着顿时的暖意...但难以覆盖心中的难过...

人真的是很奇怪...
圣诞节对从前的我只不过是另一个公共假期罢了...
可能是一个人自身在西方国家吧...和近日来大家相同的问题：“圣诞节你会怎么过？”
让我不想去面对也不行...

家人亲戚都去了吉隆坡...没法跟他们上网通话...更突显这一人面对四面墙的无聊...
怎么办...我有好多好多的话想跟他们说...
再忍忍多三天吧！

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Monday 15 December 2008

Feeling totally awful now...因为我生病了...

Looking at how all around me are recovering or have recovered from their colds, I thought I might have escaped this time round. 真是人算不如天算...连生病都比别人迟顿...

I want to recover before I go up to Edinburgh!!! I don't want to experience the cold air rushing into those madly spasming bronchi of mine, igniting a cascade of coughing fit in order to get those mucus out...:S

Just had a bowl of instant chicken congee...feeling slightly better...must say whoever invented instant congee is as brilliant as the inventor of instant noodles.

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Wednesday 10 December 2008

The weather is freezing and my chest is wheezing once again. To top it all, like a cherry on a sundae, I feel really sad. For a dear colleague at work.

K's mentor is not working for this week, so another nurse, A, will be taking K out because K's mentor and A work for the same surgery. However, it turns out that the nurses in my mentor's team (for another surgery) will be taking K out this week. Both K and I were surprised but confused. K was worried that she had done something wrong because under natural circumstances, A will be taking her out. This morning, P was explaining to me that A had just separate from her husband (in terms of divorce) and so to give her a break, my mentor's team will be taking K out. I was quite sad over the news and my heart went out for A. A is a really nice person, always happy and jovial. Whenever she sees that I have nothing more to help out with at the health centre in the afternoon, she always volunteer to take me out to patients' homes for flu injection, to see a syringe driver or for ear syringing. I am grateful for her kindness.

P was telling me that A's marriage had lasted 31 years and today is the anniversary. To make things worse, tomorrow will be A's birthday. During lunch at the old ladies today, I saw A telling S to take a look at her hand. Something was missing. The wedding ring. A had managed to take it off, finally, with a great deal of courage.

I am really touched by the strong bonds among this small group of nurses and how they help each other when one is in crisis. I remember S was telling me that when my mentor's husband died of cancer last year at this period (coincidentally, a few days before my mentor's birthday), these colleagues protected her by keeping her away from terminally ill patients who require palliative care.

- i just wanted to say ...# ;