My Story..My Life...

At first there was no much reaction from me...coz I know that death is inevitable for him. But as more people asked me if I knew about his death back home, the truth is alowly sinking in. Yet another relative member passed away when I am abroad.

It didn't hurt as much as when I first knew that my cousin passed away. Perhaps I was not close to my uncle. Perhaps it was how he was not a very good husband and dad to my aunt and my late cousin. Perhaps...

But then at times, memories come flooding back. How he used to tease me and called me 大路妹 (mainland china girl) because of my braids when I was young. How he used to get me Yakult from the fridge even though I was not allowed any cold drinks due to my asthma. How he used to...

The second wake that I did not have a chance to attend. One more person to pray to when I get back for the 清明节 the year after.

Dear uncle, do rest in peace. I am glad that you are free from all pain and suffering now. When you see 家明哥哥 in heavens, do reconcile with him. Keep him company and be the kind of Dad he yearns for.

Christmas is almost coming, so is 家明哥哥's death anniversary. Dear cousin, if you are reading this from up there, you are still dearly missed by everyone...

- i just wanted to say ...# ;