My Story..My Life...

I guess I have never feel so dejected in my life, at least for a long long time now...

The morning started off fine by meeting Cathy at a patient's house for detox treatment. The problem came in the afternoon. There was absolutely nothing to do back at the substance misuse centre. Rebecca and I tried to call every possible mental health team and unit in Stockport and Tameside, even in Oldham and Bury but it seems our effort have gone futile. Maybe it is just our luck, or all the people in charge of student placement have conspired to go for meetings at the same time. All I remember so far was to leave messages for them to call back but, as you can guess, most of them did not. I wished they could just reject me straight in the face, rather than making me wait for their calls...

Then there is the problem of having two students on placement at the same place. Because all the areas can only accomodate one student at a time for spoke placement, it is rather hard to make it fair for both Rebecca and I to have the same spoke placements. Furthermore, all the mental health units and teams already have students at their places, this makes it even harder for them to accomodate more students who wish to arrange for a spoke placement.

Vexed, agitated, despair and disappointed...

To top off a bad day, I could not eat dinner in peace today. It was sad enough to eat dinner by yourself because you had to rush back for dinner and all your friends are done eating and gone. All I pray was to eat dinner quietly and peacefully. Then this person had to come and sit in front of me. As if the width of the table was not short enough. It was so awkward because I had to look elsewhere (but the front) all the time and in the end, my appetite was lost. SO MUCH for the dinner I was looking forward to...

How I wish I have more courage and confidence...
How I wish I can muster strength in the face of obstacles...
How I wish some advices will land upon me anad guide me through...
And the wishing goes on...

- i just wanted to say ...# ;